life. the big picture.

That boy from high school died and I can't stop thinking about it. I don't know who he is or what happened. Just that it is horribly sad. How eerie is it to think about that day. The last hours. Then nothing. So sudden and unexpected. It must be so sad for God to snip the lifeline and know how much pain it will cause. Things like this happen and it makes you think. It makes you love everyone around you a little bit more. Or a lot bit more. It makes you wonder, what if so-and-so just died tomorrow? What would I do? You think about how you're living your life and if you're happy. If you would be satisfied if you died soon. I think about Alexis Cottle and it is heartbreaking. I don't exactly know if they were together but I think it was something close to that. If I were in her place....that is the worst thought in the world. I think about all of these people I know. How it would affect me if they died. I am so glad that all of you are alive. You are all important to me and I think about you and you matter to me somehow.